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Fri, 10 Jul 2009 20:25:01 GMT

I was horrible. Looking back at my old entries.... WOW. I was an ungrateful person who cursed like a sailor. o_O I've changed, believe me. I am a complete born-again Christian. Though I still love GaaLee. >_> I can't believe I even used to even THINK like that... just wow. It's no wonder barely anyone would comment, I was a jerk.

So how is everyone here? Tell me how your summer has been going. :D My summers been uneventful- errr good. XDDD Mike left in June.. Ohwait. I haven't even been on here since I meet Mike!! Me and him have been dating since September! He's 16, has hair like a sheep, is a gentleman and/or a dork. :) We are a few days shy of dating for TEN MONTHS. That's a big deal for me, yo! Anyhow, I went off on a tangent.. He left for Massachusetts to stay with his uncle on June 5th.. His uncle had a job Mike could work for muchos money, and it was a great opportunity for mah Mike.. Well after a while of working Mike started having symptoms of a genetic disease called CPT II. It's a very rare enzyme deficiancy.. basically, his body goes straight to his muscles to get energy, instead of his fat.. making it impossible for him to be doing the landscaping job he was doing. Now he can only have 50 grams of fat A DAY. It's crazy, but he's coping well. :) So I guess him leaving was a blessing in disguise! If he hadn't have gone, than we never would've known about this, and his liver could've been severely damaged. Okay, so I'm a horrible explainer.. Heres an article on CPT II- http://www.savebabies.org/diseasedescriptions/cptII.php

ANYWAY!! Jeez I can't stay on task! My summer has been okay. Lack of Mike = bouts of BAWWW but that's alright. He'll be home in 3 weeks!! Plus, band camp is this Sunday. I am PUMPED. 8D -band geek- I get to room with Moriah, my fellow Christian/GaaLee shipper.. What a world. XD So yeah, tl;dr, I ramble on and on. Have a great day!

KLDHJALNSMA IHATEYOUALL

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 19:12:58 GMT

I love how I log in and I have 77 messeges, and I only watch the capslock Naruto community. WHATTHEEEEE.

Happy tomorrow is Thanksgiving day, you over posting buttheads. :I

ERRRR

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 05:27:31 GMT

I'M UPDATING SAMMIT. .... Uh. Yeah. I'm now old. :< OH WELL.

KTHXBAI.

Busy-ness :)

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 02:51:37 GMT

Sorry, should've posted when I got back. I went to band camp, Projekt Rev, and Florida, back baby!

Birthday is August 11th, I INVITE YOU ALL. D:

Euhm. Oh, I did that Ten Drabble.. eh... thing. I post now.

1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like. (GaaLee!)
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it’s over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.

But they will not post up right.. Will post at another time.

Erkk

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 04:28:00 GMT

Sorry for not stopping by here. I had no internet for a while, and yeah.

So to update, I just got back from the fireworks display- it was amazing. :] It reminded me that life is so beautiful- fireworks are so inspiring!! <3

I don't have much more to say here.. except that pregnancy amazes me. So now I'm drawing mpreg pictures. GREAT. =w= I'm becoming a MONSTAH! D: ... A LeeGaa monster. ._.;

Get It Up

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 22:21:20 GMT

So, I may get Flash. I traced some scenes from Naruto, just to see how well they would turn out as animations on Windows Movie Maker, and it sucked. But, it convinced my dad to get me Flash for my upcoming birthday(August 11th). I can't wait! You guys will definitely see a lot of journals about flashs if I can get it. :D

So, how hard is simple realism? I'm going to give it a go in a few. :] I'm drawing Jimmy Urine, from Mindless Self Indulgence. :D Damn he's hilarious. XD

Ah, also, I was looking at my deviantART, checking messages and such, and it hit me.. When the fuck did I get so many watchers?! o_O Argh, I have.. 26?? Jeez. XD That's on my main account. On my yaoi one, I have four. Either way! XD I'm happy. :D

*marries Gaara's seiyuu* >:3 Mr. Heavenly voice~ XD

Let Me Be With You

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 05:19:43 GMT

Oh oh oh oh yeah~ That song makes me so happy. ^_^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F6yvnb3kjwY I don't even watch Chobits. XD

Just updating for the heck of it. God I want Flash, I'd make an animation to it. :(

I wish I was a cloud..

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 03:03:57 GMT

:) I do. I've been kind of "I hate fucking boys" ish lately, oddly enough. Not counting my guy friends(the few, the proud? D: ).

But I just feel. Ah. I don't know. I want to draw, but my tablet only works sometimes, so. I'll wait til the 'morrow. I'm getting tired, so I shall sleep. That's what I get for getting two hours of sleep last night. Haha. I want to go and lay in a field of fresh grass, over a hill with a huge view of the clouds. No worries. no troubles, no time to keep. I may bring a notebook, to sketch where my mind is taking me, but that is it. All I need. <3

I know the mood I'm feeling. Dreamy. <3 Just let me dream. What is your dream for the now?

:D

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 17:36:28 GMT

*is posting at a reasonable hour of the day* LOL

I started drabbling my fanfic. *happiness* I just need to super!edit it, and I'll post it here. :D Yay.

Today I'm going to Ashey's housewarming party, at 3. I'ma sleepin' over, so, see you tomorrow? :Db

OK, so just now, I was watching Avatar, and it was the one where Katara was training Aang to waterbend, and Sokka said "We can find a puddle for you two to splash in"(or something) and when they got to it, it was a huge waterfall. I said "Nice puddle." And ten seconds later I hear "Nice puddle." from Sokka. XDDDD It was a spur of the moment thing, I had to type it out.

Hn?

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 08:33:42 GMT

It's 4 in the mooooornin', and I got nothin' to say. Not.

So, my sister has a friend named Dominque, ok? And Dominique has a brother named Joel. So, appearently he has a crush on me! X3 How cute! XDDD He's just going into the 7th grade. He's fun to hang out with. :D It's like, after Chloe told me that he liked me(he reeeeally didn't want me to know) he actually started talking. o.o XDD

So yeah. Meow.

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Fri, 20 Jun 2008 06:20:45 GMT

Feeling horrible. Maybe it's because it's 2:20 AM. I will debate this further. *falls over*

Hmm?

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 16:00:35 GMT

Augh, just woke up. Howdy. *blink blink*

Okay, in regards of the band practice, every thing is fine. Haha, I am paranoid! XD Anyhow! So I went, got there a little late cause I had to get a booster shot(which made it a tad painful to play :'D) and it wasn't as... Bad? as I thought. I met a few kids from the other school that mixes with my middle school to make the high school I'm going to. (confusing? Yes, it is |D) And a few people from my school(yay!). And yeah. It was.. easy. o.o And we have cool songs that we actually know to play this year. :D Like You Really Got Me, I Hate Myself For Loving You, stuff like that. XD Uber fun. But I realized I need to improve my flute skiiiiills. XD I'm kind of lagging behind. :P Ah well. That's what the summer is for. <3

And! After I got back from band practice, I went to dinner with my biological dad, whom I've never met. My mom came with me, and his wife came with him. To tell the truth, I was really afraid that it would end up being completely awkward, and end without one bit of resolve, you know? But, I met him. :) When I first walked into the restaurant(a Hibachi/Chinese place :D) he was holding the door and said "Hi Alex". I was looking around thinking "Is this really him??". I imagined him to be.. less.. Good looking! I mean, he's not "OMG HOT" but for a while, I imagined something close to horrible.. Anyhow, what was funny was that he held out his hand for me to shake it. I kindly ignored it and hugged him. XD So, we sat down, and he talks and talks and goes on.. And I realize more and more that we are SO alike, ya know? And we're both indecisive! XDDD Seriously indecisive. So, since me and him have been talking through emails for.... 6 months maybe? He knew I loved sushi. So he orders the sushi BOAT. Literally, a boat full of sushi. @_@ It was huge!!! So, I didn't order a dinner. So since the sushi boat took a while to be prepared, I was served last. But it didn't matter. It got there... OHMYGOD. HUGE!! Sooooo good. <3 So we ate, and talked about everything, eat some more, got dessert, and talked far after our diner was done. I showed him some of my art, and we talked some more... I had the best time!! The best thing about him is that he looks right at you when you talk, you feel that he's truly listening to every word you're saying. Oh my God, it was great. :D And the cool thing? My dad(moms husband XDDD) was totally fine with it. o.o Since he never met his biological dad, when he had the chance, he was so supportive. :D *hugs him* But yeah, I'm just really happy. :)

Oh. I tried to make a GaaLee video.. clips are hard to use! But I only have 4 episodes, which are 123-125, and Shippudden 4. Downloading from Dattebayo takes.. weeks to get done.. ;_;

ah well. Bye!

No title creativity, kthx

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 23:47:21 GMT

So, apparently I missed a band practice...? At the high school?

Ok, so I signed up for band. I didn't think we would have practices during the summer.. and you'd think they'd contact or tell me if they fucking were.. o_O My mom is the one who told me we had a message on the answering machine about it, but I don't know. Now I feel sick to my stomach, maybe someone did tell me, and I forgot.. For all I know, I may not be allowed to be in band anymore. e.e Which.. either way. I'm kind of half way into it now.. Ah. I just don't want it to go on my record that for the fucking FIRST practice, I forgot. Jeez. I knew the whole "forget about school completely" method would bite me in the ass sooner or later. *shrugs*

Now I'm stressed, whhhy. D: It's not even a big deal, but my stomach is doing back flips. e.e Man.

Well, other than that! (I want to stop whining XD) We brought our new smoker to the place where we have bonfires. We're smoking our dinner right now. But the smoke.. You'd think it'd smell bad right? Well, we used apple tree branches, and now every time you go outside, it smells so goood. <P Now I'm hungry. XD

Oh. Happy Fathers Day? :'D

Ohhh! >_

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 01:08:32 GMT

I feel like I could cry. I really don't know why exactly though. o.o; I'll add more later, to the bon fire!

EDIT: Ossu! B-b-back! I had a good time, ~~Tyler~~ Twila is hilarious. :D It was about time I went to Marina's house; I feel like I've been blowing her off, and I really don't mean it. She is one of my best friends, don't know why I thought she would hate me. ^_^; Which was my worry. I had fun! :]

But anyhow. I felt like crying.. Because.. I'm really not sure, still. #_# I think it may be this videos fault, somehow or another.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpA2lgvzAfc

Yes, I am an impossible fangirl. I am ir-returnable to a normal state of mind. This is a whole new level of fangirl. YOSH!

Oh. I have a saying in a different language to spout at you; Amor est vitae essentia. Anyone know what it means? :] It is so fucking true.

*grumble* I ate too much watermelon. Dammit all. e.e

whiiine XD

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 04:04:35 GMT

Just being here, at my uncles babysitting, bored. D: The kids are sleeping, and I'm just kind of hanging out..

But I just have to ask.. Do you guys find it weird that I got inspiration for GaaLee drabbles by babysitting my 2 and 3 year old cousins, Olivia and Audrey? It's just... weird. And, I realized that if I ever would have an angel on my shoulder, it'd be Lee. o_o For example, I was cooking macaroni for the kids(or Macatoni as they call it :3) and I reeeally had to go to the bathroom.. I kept telling myself "If you don't sit here and cook this for them, you have to do 200 one-armed push-ups..". I've got my Lee side goin'. XD I've been doing that a lot lately, I guess you could say he is my idol, real or not. *o* I really am trying to change myself, be less worrisome over physical looks and what people think, and have control over my life. I also could lose 5 pounds by doing some good training, but that comes later... XD I was thiiiiis close to being overweight on Wii Fit, and it's bugging me. @_@; .... Well, theres another thing to change about me... *dies* XD

Oh! So those drabbles.. I'll end up writing those later. One is going to tie in with the whole "angel on my shoulder thing", while another will involve children. :3 And I really am trying to avoid mpreg as much as humanly possible, so that one may take a while.. I reeeally wish Lee had a twin sister. o3o ... As a carrier! XD

Gaara: ...... I'm fucking you for Lee's sake.

Rockette: E-eh?!

XDDD *has the urge to draw that*

.... BLAHBLAH I type far too much. See ya!

Bwaha!

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 17:44:17 GMT

I think, when I made an account on here, I was PMSing. :3

"Blahblahblah BLAH. >: WHIIIINE. BOO HOO."

Okay, heres a tiddle update though, Gabe and me broke up.. in March? And good ridance, I guess. :P

Uh. I'm going to highschool! :D It's a but scary, but nothings stopping it. :D

What am I doing currently? Watching CourtTV and eating graham crackers, cause I rock like that. @_@

My current obessesion is Rock LeexGaara. I was going to make all of my mood things into Lee and Gaara, but they wouldn't show up, anyone have any advice?

There have to be other GaaLee fans around here, right? :D

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 21:33:20 GMT

Sorry about the last journal I kind of flipped out-

YOu know what?

No.

I'm not saying sorry, this is MY journal.

Anyway.

Pretty much all of my problems are solved now!

My grade- I went to my teacher, and she said I had a B now!! WTF? I don't even care, I'll still be in BETA!

Gabe- It's almost FRIDAY!!! <3333 And he said he'd take me on our first "date". He won't tell me one thing about it, but I'm so anxious!!!!!

My family- Everyone is at work, my sis is still at school. :] This makes me happy. I actually like to be alone. <3

My friends- They really do care. <3 I feel really bad for doubting that last night.. ;^;

So!

To do list?

Make Gabe's present!!

I'm going to draw him a pic of us, and take a binch of pics of me and send those too. <3

I hope thats enough, it's all I can think of! DDDDDDD:

More later. :3

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Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:24:52 GMT

My first entry.. Well I'm skipping the crap and going right to the point, yes?

I feel like crap.. Have you ever felt like everything is working against you? Because I'm more overwhelmed right now, more then ever.

Slipping grades, friend troubles, Gabriel, family issues, insecurity in school... And it's all building up in the time I need it the least.

Ok, before I go on, Gabriel is my boyfriend. We met on http://kupika.com/. YES we are dating over the internet, don't give me shit over that ok? Love is love, ya know?

So.

This Friday is Gabriel and I's one month anniversery of being together. And it feels like a big deal because he's my first real boyfriend. <3 And I'm his second girlfriend, but still. And I was going to get him something, but.. I don't even have time!!

REASONS!

My Science grade went to a C. Yes, a C. Why do I care so much? Because if this goes onto my report card, I can say Sayonnara to BETA club.. I'm not in it for fun or anything, but according to my parents, it looks good on a resume.. So I'm going with it.

Another reason! I feel like I'm slowly being dissected from my friends... nothing has happened to make me feel like that. But I can sense it or something.. Maybe their sick of me?

More! Gabe can only be online on the weekends, but he sneaks online, and I HAVE to be there.. Or I'm not able to talk to him for another day... It's like torture. I miss him so much..

Family issues? Not to that extent I'd say, but I'm fucking sick of my whole family right now...

Insecurity in school. I think I should be diagnosed with paranoia... I feel as if everyone, EVERYONE is talking about me.. It hurts.

Ok so I'm going to completly change the topic for a sec, k?

Why doesn't anyone care about now?

Elaboration: "We're doing this so you can get a good job LATER." "You need to do better for LATER."

I understand that going to college, having a family, all of that is a great thing to do.

But I NEED YOU NOW.

I don't want your care all for later.

It seems thats all you care about..

Back on topic..

I just cried my eyes out, and it helped.. And I'm listening to John Mayer, his music calms me...

I need some sleep....

Oh yeah, you will be hearing from me. ;I